Wednesday, September 25, 2013
These Feet are Made for Walking
When my friends' kids take their first steps I get genuinely excited and celebrate that milestone but with Gabriel I wasn't overcome with the same feelings.
I was holding him ever so slightly under his arms as he walked, I then proceeded to remove my hands and he continued walking for a few steps and then with much control he stopped and slowly crouched down to the floor. It was simply an, "oh, you took a couple steps- nice job," moment. I would assume this reaction with proceeding children but the first?
When Chris got home from work, telling him that Gabriel took some unassisted steps was more of an afterthought and he too didn't get incredibly enthusiastic over such a feat- he is an engineer though so that needs to be taken into consideration.
I don't know, has any other mama experienced this? Maybe because in my heart, like I've said, I'm really starting to wrestle with accepting that my little baby is growing up? Or maybe I'm holding out for when he stands up and walks to me- when the steps are more intentionally and less accidentally?
What I do know is that these are the first of many steps for this little man, steps that I pray will walk in faith along side God. Steps that will one day lead people to the Lord. Steps that will direct a Christ loving family. When thinking of it this way, those little steps actually do stir up great joy and happiness within me. I do know that these will be steps that will sometimes go in the wrong direction but that is the beauty of the Lord's grace and unconditional love.